He is Good.

25“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? 28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

Matthew 6:25-33

Since the revamping of my blog, on the few post that I've had, you may have been wondering why I didn't have any Bible verses on them. Or maybe you weren't. I don't want to make any assumptions. Either way, I have a confession to make. And maybe this isn't a bad thing to you, but it is to me...I had just been picking random verses that had come up in daily devotionals or quiet times to fill the gap. It wasn't necessarily that the verse had had any resonance with me personally. I think that's not OK. I don't want to give off the impression that I am having major spiritual experiences on a daily basis because that would be a lie. So from now on, I am only posting verses that have actually symbolized the Spirit speaking. I want to be honest with you. This blog has always served to document my spiritual journey, but I want it to be as accurate as possible. 

I am making a goal, however, to have at least one spiritual post a week. Holding myself accountable to be digging into the word and searching for answers. These posts are for my sharing of thoughts and insights and I hope that you will comment below with your own beliefs or testimonies. You don't have to. But wouldn't that be cool...

So, back to that big chunk of verses cited in the beginning of this post. Matthew 6:25-33 was mentioned in last night's sermon and it's seriously one of my favorite passages. It's a lot of people's favorite, I'm sure.

 It served to be increasingly relevant last night as I have spent most of the weekend applying to jobs. I made a big, fat list of 208 PR firms in 13+ different cities across the US and began applying to them. One-by-one. Let me say, it's exhausting. I've got about 15 firms down and ~35 jobs applications sent. 

In this process, though, the Lord has been showing me how little control I have. I hate this analogy, but "you've got to throw a lot of spaghetti at the wall before something sticks," right? But I have no control of what sticks. I might see the most beautiful boutique PR form in Portland (see: Leopold Ketel) and dream of working there, but I cannot make the executive decision for them. All I can do is apply, sit, and wait. I may end up living in Raleigh or...dare I say it...Columbia...for a few more years or the rest of my life.

I love what was mentioned in #Shereadstruth this morning, "I have to constantly remind myself that God’s character is good and kind and that He has promised us that what is coming is better than what is here now. I have to believe all God’s goodness will be resplendent and wholly satisfying."

That's it right there. He is GOOD and He is IN CONTROL.

*drops mic*